OK Tuesday I got my first BFP yay, it was very light, so I'm not even sure you will see it, you really gotta stare at it, but in person you can see it pretty good..I was 8dp3dt, I was getting a little upset. my IP's e-mailed me Monday night, to tell me the remaining 4 embies didn't make it to be froze, :( I feel so bad for my IP's. they really need this to work this time.

As for my symptoms....I am sleepy, OK I am taking naps during the day :) alittle nauseous, my abdomen is achy, sore, kinda like cramps. but the one thing that is weird is my breasts are not sore yet, hmmm!! last time they were killing me!! everything has just started so I'm sure it will be here soon, not that I am looking forward to it.

My beta will be Monday.....

Transfer went well

Ok I have been on bed rest and I am still taking it easy. Our transfer went well. I was having some spotting for a few days, so I was freaking out!! But the clinic said dont worry.

My IP's Y&A showed up shortly after us, they brought me a gift. My IM made me a Japanese cake. That was so nice of her.

So we get into the transfer room and we were talking about March being a "Lucky Month". So the nurse showed me a 4-leaf clover that was in a frame, yes it is real, an old patient of theirs gave it to them. So I asked her to bring it back over to me. I told her I should rub it for good luck. So she brought it to me, and said "EVERYONE" should rub it. So Joe, Y & A , the nurse and Dr.S all rubbed the clover. So we have to have some sort of luck this time. I mean come on, we rubbed a 4-leaf clover :)

Dr.S checked my lining and it was perfect, wow, I am so excited now, We transfered 3-8 celled ebryos, that is great :) I said a little prayer in my head. Please, please let this work for Y&A , they so deserve a baby this time. I dont know how much more of this they can take.

So we left the clinic, and our 5 hour car ride turned into almost 6 hours....we were stopped on the freeway for 45 min urggghhh!!! There was an accident. So finally we got home, boy was I glad to be here.

PIO shots, they have actually been ok this time. They dont bother me as bad as the first time, I am sore, but I can handle it. And Jenn has been doing them for me, thank you.

Today is only 1dp3dt, I am officially in the 2ww, urgghh!! and my pg tests came in the mail today, yay. But I know its too early. So maybe friday I will start testing. my beta is on March 16, seems like its so far away :(

Transfer tomorrow

Ok I know its been awhile . So here's whats been goin on. Friday my IM had her egg retrieval. I got the call on Saturday saying, they got 8 eggs...woohoo :) and 7 of those 8 are fertilized :) that is fantastic. I have had a few issues last week. I was spotting, totally freaked me out!! I called the clinic and they said not to worry, everything is fine. OK, if you say so! Thankfully I stopped, absolutely nothing the last 2 days, (sigh!!) So I need to be in Cincinnati at 10:30 tomorrow morning, we are headin outta here at about 4:45am. Not going to be a fun ride, because my rear end is a bit sore!!! I started taking my PIO shots, in my hip last friday. Thankfully my wonderful best friend next door has been helping me with them. On our first cycle I ended up doing them myself, but it is so much better to have help, and if Jenn don't mind, then I don't. so thanks hun for being there for me :)



Ok since it is March, its a "Lucky" month, right? So this has got to work for my IP's.. so now I gotta find something green to wear tomorrow, I do believe I have a green care bears shirt, I know but its cute!! AND it says "I have all the luck"' So I gotta wear it.



Ok I need to head off to bed and get some really good sleep...lol. or I will sleep on the way there, its a 5 hour ride, (one way) eeek! but its like a breeze now we have been there so many times already!



Ok good nite, wish us luck :)

OK I know I have been gone awhile, but so much has happened. First thing I had an ultrasound which showed one little precious heart beat. My IP's were so happy. I went back for another ultrasound at 9 weeks and the heart just stopped. We were all very sad. Doc says sometimes this just happens, he reassured me it wasnt anything I did or didnt do. But that didnt help, I was really sad for my IP's.

So the day after Thanksgiving i went into the hospital to have a D & C. They told me to eat a LIGHT dinner the day before!! HELLO it was Thanksgivimg, I dont think so, I love food, and since the baby stopped growing I got my appettite back, I was eating!!! and man did I...LOL .

So surgery went as well as it could! Now I just needed time to get better and get through the holidays. Joe got laid off too, the day after Thanksgiving. Right before the holidays. That sucked!!! So we were bumbed. But everything worked out. I dont know how. I guess you just gotta have faith. I prayed like a mad woman!! Just begging for things to work out for us. And they did. I guess I was a good girl last year, Santa granted my wish..lol..Our unemployment came in right away, and we had some extra money come in too. So we gave our kids a great Christmas after all.

Ok so now January.Joe got to go back to work earlier than we thought, so yay for that. I started taking Lupron shots again on January 17. wow how wonderful is that?? lol.. Then I went to have my blood drawn on the 27th, to check to see if I am "down regulated". The clinic called and "yes" I am. Wonderful news, now I gotta wait for IM to have her blood drawn, but that wont be until Feb 5, wow a week away.

February...

Ok my IM had her blood drawn and everything is lookin good. Sunday Feb 8 will be artificial day 1, I will start taking my Estradiol tabs, and continue the lupron. I am so excited :) I will have a ultrasound on day 12 which will be Feb 19, to check my lining to make sure it is plenty thick enough. I cant wait.



So now I think I am all caught up. Tomorrow is Sunday, estradiol here I come!!! I am so ready to get this show movin along again. This will be out third transfer. First time just didnt work, second time we had a miscarriage, and third time is the charm...IT WILL WORK, my IP's are wonderful, they truly deserve to be parents, I hope I can make that dream come true for them this time.

Well the big day is finally here. Tomorrow is our ultrasound to see how many beanies are growing !! I'm guessing 1, but you never know..

We are making a vacation out of it. My IF may not be there for the u/s so we are staying over in KY and plan on spending Saturday with them. Hopefully I will be feeling good enough to spend some time with them.

I hope the 5 hour car ride there isn't going to be so bad. This will be the first time we took all 3 kids. And I have been feeling horrible. Joe better be ready to pull over when I yell!!

So I wont be home until late Saturday , I'm sure I will be too excited to wait until Sunday, so I will probably come home and jump on here right away to post "how many".

MORNING SICKNESS :(

OK, so I took the kids to school this morning, and I no sooner walked in the door and headed straight for the bathroom. YEP, I got sick, just alittle, but I guess that counts as MS. Oh I am so not looking forward to that. I didnt have that with my other pregnancies (3). But I am much older now, so I guess my body has different plans this time.

Oct 27.2008

Well today is my birthday, so let me start off by saying "Happy Birthday to Me". I'm 34 today. When I hit 30 it felt like the end of the world..lol.. I didn't want to be in my 30's. But now that I've been here for a few years, it really isn't that bad. I am much more mature than I was in my 20's. I'm older, but not old, and wiser.

So you are supposed to make a wish when you blow out your candles, right? Hmmm, ok. I really don't need to wish for anything. I have a great family, that supports me. Healthy, happy kids, who do very well in school. A husband who will go to any length to make sure I'm happy. I've learned when you have happiness and good health, there is no need to want material things. So, the only wish I have is...I wish there were more people in this world that would help other people, whether it be, surrogacy, giving a few cents to a homeless person, or just being a friend to someone who needs one. There are so many ways we can help and make a difference in someone else's life. On that note, I am truly blessed to have found wonderful IP's to help. They are a deserving couple and I cant wait to make them happy parents :)