Today is starting hectic, I need to go for this bloodtest, then I need to go to my grams calling hours. Everytime I seen my gram she would tell me she prays for me every nite, in hopes this works for us. When I took my first hpt I ran over to tell everyone, when I told my gram she had tears in her eyes. She has been waiting to hear this good news. She was so interested in hearing about my surrogacy. Last friday sadly she passed away. I will truly miss her. I am saddened that I wont be able to tell her the results, but then again I guess she will know. It was strange how all day I never got a call. finally at 9 I did, Lizzie, the nurse called and said "it was just strange she felt like going back to the clinic, and found my results".
We were supposed to leave at 8, thats when the calling hours ended. But for some reason we just didnt leave, or we couldnt leave. I was trying to balance my emtions, sad for my grama, but excited and happy for the pregnancy. I couldnt get very upset about my grama, due to the fact I am pregnant. I didnt want to put myself at risk for a miscarriage. And I know that my grama would want me to be very careful. The one thing that kept me together was hearing my grama time and time again saying "Im ready, I want to go". I hated hearing that, but I could underdstand how she felt. She just turned 80, and even her favorite thing of all, reading, was becoming boring to her. I think she was tired of being here. With that said, I know my grama would want me to be happy about being pregnant, and to share it with everyone. So when we got the call at the funeral home that I am officially pregnant, it was amazing. I am happy that I could be in the same place as my gram and family when I found out. I know she heard the news, I only wish I could have told her and seen her smile and hug me with happiness. I wish I could have at least had that from my gram :( But now I know I have an angel watching over me, making sure I am ok, and nothing goes wrong. I figured, since she prayed every night, God must have decided since he was taking my grama home, he would answer her prayer and help me, help another family. So I will move on and be healthy, because thats what she would want for me.
YAY WE ARE PREGNANT :D how exciting. It was so cool to have my family with me when I found out. My beta is 1399, that sounds really good. so now I will go again on Wednesday for a second beta
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